Week 8 - Bad Week

I have started vomited on 17th of March. Vomitted after breakfast and while driving to office and back. Had it very badly on the 18th while stucked in the traffic jam. Luckily I brought extra plastic bags with me. It was not easy for me to maneuver the car, at the same time ensuring I did not knocked on the car in front of me by opening my eyes while having the spasm. Maybe government should have a ban on pregnant women in their first trimester from driving and give people like us 1-month paid leave? Muahaha..

Had a very bad weekend, very weak and unable to eat properly. By 24th however I felt so much more stronger eventhough the nausea and the occasional ‘almost’ incident happened. Yesterday vomitted twice on the way driving back.

My eating routine for Week 7-8,

Breakfast : Milo+cracker/dry toast (milk is banned from my sight)
Lunch : a bit of White rice, green vege, egg/fish
Night : Clear pork soup with white rice or chicken rice
In between meal : Dry crackers (to reduce nausea, my MIL tips)
Drinks : Ice water, apple juice with slice of lemon or MILO

Colors play a role in my food selection, anything red like curry or chilies, or milky white is unacceptable. All food portion reduced to half of what I normally consumed.

Physically, I think I lost 1-2kg due to my changing diet. I noticed most probably I vomitted whenever it's almost meal time and my stomach was empty. That means I have to watch my mealtime and not go hungry at any time.

Ah.. Sudah!

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macam mane ni Sayang?

It's Ours!

Remember my post regarding our Bumiputera status was questioned when we bought this house?

Well, after all the heartache, bruised prides and 3 appeals later, now the house is ours wohoho!!!

Thanks to our seller for the extra effort they have taken. Praise the Lord for listening to our prayers, especially Momo's.

Wow.. what a good year.. this baby really bring luck to us :D

Beautiful Friendship

I was talking on the phone to one of my BFF yesterday and updating each other of our latest news. She is actually one of the few girlfriends I have that I can talk to on the phone for hours and yakking away, meet up and not say much to each other but just enjoy our time together. Since we left university, we have drifted apart, but we still making it a point to call each other up every once in a blue moon.

We were talking about among other few things, an ex- uni-mate whom we found on Facebook just recently, and that triggered our discussion about the old times and the stupid things we did. She vaguely mentioned about a particular incident I considered as the darkest moment in my life, a dark secret of which only my parents, my sister and few closest friends knows about.

You see, she was one my friends who accompanied me on one of the nights in the hospital and the day I was discharged. She followed me around for about a week, came to my room to check on me and brought me out for meal. She never asked me anything about why I did the thing I do, what triggered it or how I feel. We would just walked side by side, sit at the park, or ate on the same table, but never once she prodded me or gave me any advised about what happened. She always talked about something else, and the closest she would mentioned about the incident at that time was.. no matter what I would be okay…

At that time, I had never expected her to do that for me. I didn’t know her that well, and even wondering why she was following me around, not saying much and never asked me anything about the incident, of which I myself wanted to forget anyway. But much later on I realized what she did was such a tremendous act of self-lessness. She made my life much more bearable at that time, indirectly helped me in my emotional recovery, and just be a good friend using her presence when I have no family around to comfort me.

For countless times, I was thanking her for being there for me. It was exactly what I needed. She brushed me aside lightly, and said thank you too for being there for her during her time of need. I could not help but asking her sincerely, have I been a good friend to her, and have I done enough for her? I always had the feeling that I am not that helpful or nice to anyone, and did not reciprocate what was being given to me.

She assured me that I’ve done more than enough, that I had been a friend and never once judged her, especially when she made a very bad decision which had affected her reputation and her personal life until this day. I had always been hanging around even though she knows I did not agree with what she had done. She appreciates it so much that I have kept in touch with her after all these years, during such times where everyone we used to know is busy with their own career and personal life, and many old friends drifted away.

She is much successful than I am, but she sounded almost forlorn and lonely. I could understand her feeling in that sense, although I considered myself luckier than her that I have my husband to share my life with, a bigger family who dots on me, and friends from my old days who still think about me and my wellbeing. That includes her too, she has always been happy of my achievement and what I have become today.

I sincerely wish that one day she will be able to find what she’s looking for and truly be happy, and that our beautiful friendship which transcends beyond race, religion and geography, will never ends.

It Comes

The symptoms came back yesterday. In full force. Never did I felt so glad to be so sick. Vomit and all. Looks like mealtime going to be a battle, driving is a challenge, and keeping awake is a big feat.

7-Week Journey

Let me recall back my journey on this pregnancy so far:

Week 1 - My last first day period was on 26th January 2010. I was hoping that my home pregnancy test that I took would turned out positive, but I realized I got my period just when I was about to test. Felt very frustrated.

Week 2- Awaiting for another fertile days cycle on the weekend using self-check ovulation indicator.

Week 3 - On 12 Feb, I started to feel different. I was feeling I had 'something inside me', but I need to wait another 12-14 days to test. Before going back home, was shopping in Jusco when I tripped and twisted myself badly on an unforeseen obstacle in the market area. After that incident, my instinct told me clearly that I was not my usual self, and I must be very careful.

16 Feb~ I had trouble sleeping. Partially I think caused by the heat, but I was very restless. I had cramped on my back, and bad flatulance. There seems to be a big wave going on inside. Had wanted to tell Momo of my suspicion, but I didn't want to jump the gun too soon until I do the test.

18 Feb~ On the way back from JB. Feeling weird and very tired. Didn't feel like walking around at all. Reached home and tried do the test but still show negative, maybe still too early cos hormon build up still low. Went for dinner at A&W, and had my first bout of empty-vomit right after. Momo already got excited instead of being concerned, and kept telling me I was pregnant. Still, I kept my skeptism cos I don't want to be dissappointed again.

19 Feb ~ Had breakfast, and vomit air again. Still too ealy to test. Lying down the whole day. Thought maybe it's the heat, again.

20 Feb ~ Went to Ayam Penyet @ USJ9 for dinner. Vomit air again afterwards. Momo just smiled. Started to have cough, flu and mild fever.

21 Feb ~ Feeling too sick to go out. Been lying down the whole day and letting the wave inside me flowing. By 6pm, I decided to go ahead with the test. It took 1 nerve-wrecking minute wait, but the second line appeared albeit very slowly and very-very faint. :) Showed Momo the test, this time he was the one being skeptical, and we agreed to re-do first thing in the morning.

22 Feb ~ Had trouble sleeping. Kept waking up to go to the loo, and felt so thirsty. Was worried by the time in the morning, my urine would be too diluted to show the hCG build up. At 7.30am, took the test. Initially, was very dissappointed cos 1 complete minute did not show anything at all, not even a faint one. Suddenly when I was about to toss it, it appeared clearly without any warning :) Went to clinic to confirm, but since both home test showed positive, the doc decided not necessary to do any test. Asked to come again in 3 weeks time. Given folic acid and Vitamin B complex.

Week 4 - All my pants start to feel tight. Still with flu and mild fever but not dare eating any medicine.

Week 5 - Fever and flu gone. By the end of the week, started to develop constant nausea, and have trouble concentrating. Had my site accident on 3 Mar, and given a tetanus injection, which I found out was actually good for expecting mother. Boobs size increased too :)

Week 6 - Nausea getting worse. Feeling lots of stress, especially regarding works. Having trouble eating, became extremely choosy. At night, woke up at least twice with extreme thirst. Could feel lots of activity in my stomach area.

14 March - Suddenly felt nothing. All the waves and the occasional mild cramps gone. Felt like not pregnant at all except when looking at my expanding boobs. Went a bit worried especially thinking about a friend who got an ectopic pregnancy and by the time they found out, the baby was 7 weeks old and had to be aborted.

Week 7
16 March ~ Went for my first ultrasound scan. Doc said may not be able to see the baby yet, only the sac. Once scanned, doc showed white small spec which was the baby. Measured my womb, and determine location and date correct. Told doc about my concern that the symptoms gone, but doc said it's normal, it might come and go. Asked to come again on Week 12 to do card. Forgotten to ask doc to look for baby's heartbeat.

17 March ~ All my working pants not wearable anymore, can only wear either dresses or low-waist jeans. Google up on "does pregnancy symptoms gone when miscarriage". Felt very surprised that lots of miscarriages happen during Week 7-8.

Touch wood, but I hope I'm just worry for nothing. Pls God, watch over us............

Take Me Far Away From Here

So stresssssssssssss... i cannot tahan! So many idiots, so many politicians! Damn it!

The More The Merrier

Hehe....
I'm so happy to hear one of my BFF is pregnant too! My little one has so many friends even before getting out to see the world. 2 of my nieces just gave birth last January and February, my own sister gave birth last week, Momo's cousin will deliver this August, Momo's biker friend is awaiting for their twins delivery early July, and now my BFF? Wow.... So many tigers! Roar!

LATEST UPDATE (13/3/10):
1. My nephew's wife is also expecting and estimated to be due this August. That's make 5 baby tigers and tigresses at my parents house comes Christmas.
2. 2 of my colleagues from other subsidiaries are expected to deliver this June and November respectively.

phew.. it's getting a bit overwhelming...

I'm Never A Hero

I feel so much stronger today. The energy and appetite came back last night. 2 hours after reaching home, I was famished and Momo tapau for me a packet of steam chicken rice, of which I finished off till the last bit of rice. For 2 days in a row, I had been trying to leave office by 5.30pm sharp, but still I overshoot to almost 6.00pm. Guilt must have overcome me as usual.

Last week I have spoken to my boss about my pregnancy and he did advise me to know how to delegate my work to my juniors so that I have more time for myself and to get enough rest I needed. So by right I should not be feeling guilty whenever I pass by his room on my way out. Could not help it, but it's one thing I need to learn and to adjust my mindset.

Moreover, since most of my colleagues and HR has also known about it, including the site accident I had last week, at least the HR have shown some empathy and willing to try to speak further on my behalf to my boss so that I can be involved less in site activities except meetings and normal visits. I know my boss is not in an 'asshole' category, but sometimes he just likes to push me to my limits and see how far I can go before I break. Yeaa.. at least that's what he told me personally some times ago. His reason is that so I can become stronger and be a good example to my colleagues, showing that I can do a good job, if not better by being a female for doing what I do- a coolie that is hehe...

But I think this time is definitely not the right moment for me to become a hero! Not that I ever want to anyway. Futhermore, everybody has been advising me to be extra careful so that the incident did not happen again, as if it was my fault altogether. Of course I insist that it was not my fault, the danger at that particular site was a mishap waiting to happen. Yesterday we revisit the place and the facility personnel has taken the liberty to cut off all the sharp angles which was getting on the human traffic way. They could have done that long time ago, considering that the angle is rusty and obviously had been there for ages!

Cooler

Thank God the days have started to cool down a bit and it rains every now and then. Otherwise, it is very difficult to cope with the heat especially in my condition now where there's a lot of hormonal changes occur and higher than normal temperature can make me feel feverish easily.

Exhausted

Worked late, reached home 3.40am.
Came to work at 10.35am this morning.

Arghhh.. if only I don't have to do all this. It's becoming so exhausting. No amount of money from the OT can replace the time that I have lost for enough rest. Hopefully little one inside there is strong and not angry at me.

Hang in there sayang..

The Hurt Locker-Does it Worth it?

Have you watched The Hurt Locker, the movie that is head to head with Avatar when it comes to awards?

What do you think? If you ask me, I will say that I will not really go gaga over it cos after watching it and assessing how I feel *haha*, I realized I did not feel or think anything at all. Flat, that's how I described how I feel, if there is such a term. To me, the reason why it was nominated or won lots of accolades is because most of the awards are American movie awards, and this is an 'American-wants-to-feel-good-about themselves' movie. In my opinion, there are lots of other war movie that should receives more tribute compare to this. The storyline and plot is quite simple, and I did get the ending, of which was not really a typical ending that we would have expected and that is a small tiny plus. Some scenes were quite interesting, some good jokes thrown here and there, but other than that, I've got nothing else to say.

Honda City 2nd Generation Defective?

Extract from Star Motoring, The Star dated 28 Feb 2010:

PETALING JAYA: If you own either a second-generation 2008 Honda City or a first generation 2003 Jazz, Honda Malaysia is recalling your vehicles for product update.

According to the local Honda distributor, those two models could have power window master switch failure with the possibility of short circuit or fire.

However, as of today, there were no faulty cases reported in Malaysia (abis yg aku tukar actuator sampai 3 kali tu ape?)

The recall will involve some 12,935 units of City with 7,713 units of V-TEC and 5,222 units of i-DSI variants respectively.

As for Jazz, there are 3,090 units of 1.4-litre Japan-made units in Malaysia.

Honda Malaysia managing director and chief executive officer Toru Takahashi said the company would bear all charges incurred in the inspection and replacement work.

"We would like to assure our customers that all current selling models are not affected."

For details, call Honda toll free number at tel: 1-800-88-2020, or visit any authorised Honda dealer.


Mr Takahashi, while you are at it, why don't you admit the problem with the jet sound at my gearbox is your manufacturing problem and do something about it, instead of saying "it's like that one!!!" whenever I complained?

Two Heartbeats

It's feels funny that all these years I felt only one set of heartbeat in my body, and now I can actually feel that another set exists and beating deep inside me. It's indescribable and feel so surreal. Some might say it's just to early to feel it, but I instinctively know what it is :)

I feel very grateful that God had given me the chance to go through this experience. I truly understand now how significant it is, knowing that there were so many others out there who were not as fortunate as I am....

Ellen Shouldn't Be There

...being the American Idol judge.

1. She is not funny at all. Never been.

2. Her comments are all layman.

3. She always repeats her words in every comment as if she has 1-minute memory lapse.

4. She always repeats her comments every weeks.

5. She knows nut about music.

She's so amatuer, it's becoming annoying and irritating every week watching her there. She should just stick to whatever she has been doing before, which I don't really care what it was anyway.

Site Accident

I just told my bos yesterday regarding my pregnancy, so that I don't have to be assigned to work at site or go outstation during my first tri-mester. He understand my situation but assigned me to replace him for today visit since he would not be available, and supposedly it was only for a discussion.

Barely 24 hours later, while walking at the client's production area, out of nowhere a low protruding rusty angle hit my head (or rather, the other way round). Initially I felt only pain, and I was standing there with my palm on my head for a good minute waiting for the pain to pass. My colleague and our client were there, waiting with me and trying to see whether there's any blood. The moment I let my hand go and look at it, I was so shocked to see my whole palm was wet with deep red blood. Not just that, my hair started to get wet and streams of blood trickling down my forehead and cheek. Everybody was panic, including me who started to cry more out of shock rather than the pain itself.

Cleaned up there and everybody was trying to stop the bleeding. We left the place and went to clinic nearby. By that time, the blood has somehow slowed down. The doc cleaned me up again with antiseptic solution and jabbed me with anti-tetanus injection, and luckily the wound was small enough I don't need any stitching.

Driving home from the office after picking up my laptop was quite a feat. I couldn't wait to reach home and lie down. The throbbing and pounding dull pain still there up to the time Im writing this post, cos I'm trying to avoid taking the painkiller provided.

Hmm.. Really feel like sueing somebody.

Portable Induction Cooker

Call me so-yesterday, but I'm so grateful to have this item. It was a portable induction cooker given by Babai's colleague as a post-wedding gift 2 weeks ago. And it proved to be very handy for me.

Last Saturday Babai Momo was cooking me breakfast (yes, he does now :D) when half-way cooking the stove ran out of gas. We don't have any phone number of the grocery stores with us, and to change and go to the shop and get them to send it to us was too much trouble. Momo finished up his breakfast using my baking oven.

After breakfast, I was arranging our stuffs in the store when I kept on looking at the unopened box of the induction cooker. I had wished that I have found a wok or a pot which is suitable for it when we went shopping the day before.

Since at night JenJen and hubby going to organize a makan-makan, we had planned to bring keropok. Chris suggested to me to bring it over to her house and fry it there before we made a move to JenJen's place. I said ok and planned to go there after midday.

Not sure why, just after my mid-afternoon shower, I instinctively went to the store again and took out the cooker box, just to admire it hehe. Suddenly I noticed it was written at the back of the box that a stainless steel pot was included! Cheh!

Buang karan betul..


Naa. See I used it to fry the keropok. Sure I am not use to it yet especially with my style of cooking. The plus sides are, it was very easy to use, it has function selection for 4 types of cooking e.g soup, stew, stir fry and steambot, or you can adjust the temperature manually. You will also not experience the blackening at the bottom of your cookery because of the gas combustion. It's portable and convinient of course, you just need an electrical outlet to use it anywhere. It's easy to clean too.

The downside is the power consumption. The highest wattage is for stir-frying which consume 2,000W. Definitely not suitable for heavy cooking. Cookery also must be suitable for induction cooker type. And if it's blackout, logically this will be useless.

Definitely I still prefer gas stove over induction cooker when it comes to cost effectiveness. I only plan to use this during emergency such as whenever I'm out of gas, during makan2 or during holiday.